On My Own

[ciroccoj]

Got up at 5am to take all my boys to the airport. Little children are not happy campers when they're woken up that early.

Justin was being cranky and obnoxious and at one point one of us asked him, "What's the matter with you?!" kind of exasperated, and got back a very soft, "I'm going to miss Mama."

Oh, damn. I may have mentioned this before, but while tantrums and rages generally leave me unmoved, tears and a little brave face completely do me in. So we had to stop everything for a little while and just cuddle, and talk about how he would be doing lots of fun things with grandparents and uncles and aunts in Calgary, and we'd talk on the phone every day, and and and. And he finally smiled and was able to continue getting dressed.

So now they've gone off, and I got a message on the machine from Daniel telling me they made it to Toronto and were about to board the plane for Calgary. Justin wanted to leave a message too, but didn't want to get off the phone - he was somewhat unclear on the concept of "leaving a message", and wanted to wait until I came on the phone in person.

I'm quite surprised at how nervous I am about them going off without me. I've been on planes all my life; I'm well aware that planes are seven times as safe as cars and all that reassuring stuff. But somehow sending all of my offspring and my partner off on a plane without me is sending my anxiety level up rather high. For me, anyway. I don't know if the high terror alert this New Years has anything to do with it, or whether worrying about other close relatives is affecting me, or what. Probably not - I've been feeling queasy about this for a while now. I'm really looking forward to getting a call saying they're safe in Calgary.


In any case. They're gone for the next 8 days, and I have a more open agenda before me than I have had in a long time. I'll probably spend a lot of my time with my mom, but for the time I'm alone at home... I haven't had more than a day to myself in years. I don't know what I'm going to do.

I do have a wishlist, though:

• ADR readings
  
  
  1. "Fitting the Forum to the Fuss -A User-Friendly Guide to Selecting an ADR Procedure"
     
  2. Anatomy of a Litigation
     
  3. Osachuk v. Osachuk[Man][1971]2W.W.R.
     
  4. Walker v. Dubord [1992] B.C.J. No.1192 (B.C.C.A.)
     
  5. Dibattista (in trust) v. Menecola [1990] 75 O.R. (2d) 443 (Ont. C.A.)
     
  6. Silva v. Silva [1990] 1 O.R. (3d) 436(Ont. C.A.)
     
  7. Negotiation Strategy, Legal Negotiation: Theory and Applications
     
  8. Style and Effectiveness in Negotiation, in Negotiation: Strategies for Mutual Gain
     
  9. Typical Hardball Tactics
     
  10. Invent Options for Mutual Gain. in Getting to Yes
      
  11. The Seven Elements of Negotiation Preparation
      
  12. Lawyers, Ethics and Negotiation
      
  13. Ethical Frameworks for Negotiation
      
  14. Rules of Professional Conduct of the Law Society of Upper Canada. Rules 2.4.6
      
  15. The Mediation Alternative
      
  16. The Role of Counsel in Mediation
      
  17. Advocacy in Mediation
      
  18. Case Management and Mandatory Mediation
      
  19. The Tapestry of Culture: A Design for the Assessment of Intercultural Disputes
      
  20. Dispute Resolution Readings and Case Studies, 396-407; 3122-29; 3132-35
      
  21. Dispute Resolution Readings and Case Studies, 432-440
      
  22. Dispute Resolution Readings and Case Studies, 615-625
      
  23. Labour Arbitration excerpt. Professor John Manwaring
      
  
  
• lj update - ADR, Kingston, counseling, X-mas, fic meme
  
• polish and finish iterum fic
  
• website-sympatico.ca
  
• scan in Jean Chretien articles
  
• bursary at school
  
• pay tuition
  
• read Chris' TBI books and the library's challenging kids package
  
• read Voyager fic
  
• e-mail Andy & Linda H
  
• fb ff.n - JJ and Pants Shopping CI
  
• clear surfaces
  
• laundry
  
• call Joe's Car Radio
  
• get brakes fixed
  
• Medee's snippet
  
• learn Punch!
  
• make our basement into a livable space
  
• see if the Pretty Picture "sequel" is anything I actually want to finish
  
• get our pictures organized
  
• make our family home page
  
• hang our pictures on the walls
  
• read SCA parent's site
  
• start garb
  

Comments

[snarkhunter.livejournal.com]

Justin wanted to leave a message too, but didn't want to get off the phone - he was somewhat unclear on the concept of "leaving a message", and wanted to wait until I came on the phone in person.

awwww! ::melts at the cuteness::

So. Adorable.

I've been on planes all my life; I'm well aware that planes are seven times as safe as cars and all that reassuring stuff. But somehow sending all of my offspring and my partner off on a plane without me is sending my anxiety level up rather high. For me, anyway.

I don't have offspring, but when my parents and my brother--or just my parents--go on a trip together without me, I get all panicky until I know they're safe on the ground or in the night's hotel...I think it's that I'm afraid of being left alone, should (God forbid) something happen. In other words, I think your anxiety is *perfectly* normal, terror alert or no terror alert.

You left something off the list

[jenniferjames.livejournal.com]

I didn't see "Spend a couple of days lounging on the couch, watching t.v. and eating from take out containers."

C'mon, Cirocco! E-I-G-H-T kid and husband free days? You gotta be lazy on at least one of them ;-) The list will still be there...

Re: You left something off the list

[tudorlady.livejournal.com]

Ditto. Seriously. There has to be at least one or two days that you don't get out of bed until noon, and don't bother changing out of your pajamas all day. Take a bath for an hour, read trashy stuff, and eat as much chocolate as you like. I mean it. Really.

[ciroccoj.livejournal.com]

:D :D thanks, guys. I'd love to do that, and I was planning on just such lazytime for myself for the first time in... god I don't even want to think of how many years. Since before my older son was born, for sure.

Unfortunately, it'll have to wait until next time (?) I get an opportunity like this. Too much poop going on right now.