like a bridge over troubled water

[ciroccoj]

Took Justin in to day care this morning, and as I was taking off his snowpants and he was wriggling he lost his balance, fell back, and smacked the back of his head on the cubby ledge on the way down. There was that awful moment of 'silence with mouth wide open, prepping for a huge WAIL as soon as the kid gets his breath back', and then he let'er rip. Howled in pain.

I finished changing him to inside clothes with one hand, the other one holding him close, as he wailed and wailed. Then I carried him into the play room and sat hugging him while he cried. About ten minutes later, he'd finally reached the 'hiccup and soft sobbing' stage when the door opened and I heard Chris say, "JiMENa! We have to GO!" (Chris only says my full name when he's pissed at me, and he was plenty pissed - he was going to be late to work.) Then he saw that I was holding Justin and immediately switched moods, knelt down, and hugged him too.

We stayed another five minutes or so, until Justin finally calmed down. The hell with getting to work on time.

And I mentioned to Chris later that for me, this kind of thing is always a confirmation of why I wanted to be a mother. Chris said once that when he used to listen to Sting at 3am while he walked our babies back to sleep, despite the annoyance he always thought, "This is why I wanted kids." Because you end up doing stuff for them that you wouldn't do for anybody else, like waking up four times in the middle of the night and walking them around... but there's a feeling of humbling gratitude over the importance you have in this child's life. The fact that when they're in pain or in need, you have the awesome power and responsibility of being able to help and comfort them, just by your presence. That by your actions you're helping a small human being grow up with the firm knowledge that they too are important, that they deserve love and devotion.

Gosh, it's hard to put that feeling into words.

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My mom's back from the hospital. She was actually released Friday, as her white blood cell count went on a bit of an upswing, finally. I'm using today to catch up on my readings (hah - I amuse myself when I'm this deluded) but will probably go visit her after class tomorrow.

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Chris and Daniel are back to school and work. ::sigh:: I wish vacations like that could last forever. They're both pretty pleased, though. They had a wonderful week, playing and spending time together.

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Thanks, all of you who made me feel better about the thursday100plus situation yesterday. It's funny how such stupid and minor things can get under your skin, isn't it? Even when you firmly tell yourself it's not that big a deal... it is.

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And now back to drudgery. 'Three more weeks, three more weeks', has become my new mantra.

• reformat C2, C3, C4, C7 (C5 & C6 are done, and C13_3 is the same as C7)
  
• reformat P2, P3, P4, P5, P6, P7
  
• Contracts readings
  
  • Hunter Engineering v Syncrude
    
  • Tilden Rent a Car v Clendenning
  
  
• Property readings
  
  • Royal Canadian Legion v Prentice
    
  • Skornya v Bobiak
    
  • Pugliese v National Capital Commission
    
  • NCC v Pugliese
    
  
  
• look at courses for course fair
  
• type in week's menu

Comments

[umbo.livejournal.com]

Wonderfully expressed thoughts about parenting there. And even though I didn't comment yesterday (or was it the day before?), I am *very* sorry about the hard drive fiasco.

*hugs*

[bast2.livejournal.com]

i was wondering....could you and chris possibly adopt me? seriously, you are the type of parents any child needs and wants.

good news about your mom.

[ciroccoj.livejournal.com]

i was wondering....could you and chris possibly adopt me?

LOL!

seriously, you are the type of parents any child needs and wants.

Thanks :) I hope I really am, and don't just come across as that because I only write about parenting successes, you know?