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May. 16th, 2008
stress-induced pointless rambling
May. 16th, 2008 10:06 pmChris is at his yearly gaming convention, hopefully having a great time. The boys and I had a pretty good day today. Built part of a Roman road, made a flipbook showing Hanibal's elephants crossing the Alps. I even got a lot of reading done. The house is a mess and we're eating far too much pizza lately, but whatever. Tomorrow Chris takes both boys with him, and I'll get an entire day to slog through corporate tax structures and spousal support guidelines and oh just kill me now.
Then on Sunday Chris is at the convention all day again, so I'm going to use part of tomorrow to plan a bunch of no-supervision-required activities for the kids. I'm toying with some of them being paid jobs. Seeing as how in a way they'll be babysitting themselves.
On an unrelated note, it's funny, but I've been feeling... I dunno. Like there's some stuff that I'm angry at Chris for, though I know I shouldn't be. It's not fair, yet there it is. I don't think it's even anger, it's... sort of anger. Peri-anger? Something like that. And for no really good reason, either. Probably just the stress of the bar exam. I'm short-tempered with the kids too, and trying very hard not to be, so maybe some of the wtf-ness I feel towards them for the dumb stuff they do is being shunted towards him.
There's no real way for Chris to deal with this stuff, either - especially since I haven't said anything so he probably has no idea there's anything wrong. And he's being so incredibly supportive about my studies that it seems ridiculous to bring up anything as dumb as this.
I guess I'm feeling like I've been owed... an apology? Something like that. For a while now. Stuff I wish he'd said, that I would probably dismiss immediately if he did say it, because really, it's shit that doesn't need an apology.
( OK, this got ridiculously long, so it's behind a cut, but at least now I think I can read the next 1000 pages of business law ::sob:: I have to hack through without internal distraction )
In totally unrelated news? I'm dying to see Narnia: Prince Caspian.
Then on Sunday Chris is at the convention all day again, so I'm going to use part of tomorrow to plan a bunch of no-supervision-required activities for the kids. I'm toying with some of them being paid jobs. Seeing as how in a way they'll be babysitting themselves.
On an unrelated note, it's funny, but I've been feeling... I dunno. Like there's some stuff that I'm angry at Chris for, though I know I shouldn't be. It's not fair, yet there it is. I don't think it's even anger, it's... sort of anger. Peri-anger? Something like that. And for no really good reason, either. Probably just the stress of the bar exam. I'm short-tempered with the kids too, and trying very hard not to be, so maybe some of the wtf-ness I feel towards them for the dumb stuff they do is being shunted towards him.
There's no real way for Chris to deal with this stuff, either - especially since I haven't said anything so he probably has no idea there's anything wrong. And he's being so incredibly supportive about my studies that it seems ridiculous to bring up anything as dumb as this.
I guess I'm feeling like I've been owed... an apology? Something like that. For a while now. Stuff I wish he'd said, that I would probably dismiss immediately if he did say it, because really, it's shit that doesn't need an apology.
( OK, this got ridiculously long, so it's behind a cut, but at least now I think I can read the next 1000 pages of business law ::sob:: I have to hack through without internal distraction )
In totally unrelated news? I'm dying to see Narnia: Prince Caspian.
