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May. 21st, 2003 08:46 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
ciroccojChildren's Museum today again. Very nice to connect with another parent, especially a homeschooler, very very nice for Daniel to connect with another little kid. Who, incidentally, said he'd really like Daniel to visit his house. So I guess he likes Daniel too :)
Chris turns 30 today. Aw, he's growing so fast :)
Eps 299 & 300 of L&O tonight! Whee! Sure hope my VCR doesn't crap out on me, or I'll be right pissed.
Feeling... hm. Don't know how. I remember feeling pretty good about my own 30th birthday two years ago, feeling like I was where I wanted to be, pretty much. We were in London which I deeply resented, and Chris was in first year residency, which I also deeply resented, but we had two great little kids, I was finally slowly getting out of a major depression, and things were sort of looking up.
I don't know how I feel about this current milestone. Things are better than they were a few months ago, for sure, but... hm. Don't know. We've had so many major ups and downs lately, and even the things that are getting better are so shaky, that it's hard to really feel securely optimistic.
Cautiously optimistic. With a big dose of skepticism and a major fear of additional setbacks, personal, emotional, financial, or marital. And a great weariness with respect to the last few years of our lives. And a greater weariness regarding the next few, until Chris finishes his residency. And even looking at his post-residency with Chris' words echoing in my mind: It's like a carrot and stick, but at the last minute, they keep taking away the carrot.
Is there an emoticon for the above?
Chris turns 30 today. Aw, he's growing so fast :)
Eps 299 & 300 of L&O tonight! Whee! Sure hope my VCR doesn't crap out on me, or I'll be right pissed.
Feeling... hm. Don't know how. I remember feeling pretty good about my own 30th birthday two years ago, feeling like I was where I wanted to be, pretty much. We were in London which I deeply resented, and Chris was in first year residency, which I also deeply resented, but we had two great little kids, I was finally slowly getting out of a major depression, and things were sort of looking up.
I don't know how I feel about this current milestone. Things are better than they were a few months ago, for sure, but... hm. Don't know. We've had so many major ups and downs lately, and even the things that are getting better are so shaky, that it's hard to really feel securely optimistic.
Cautiously optimistic. With a big dose of skepticism and a major fear of additional setbacks, personal, emotional, financial, or marital. And a great weariness with respect to the last few years of our lives. And a greater weariness regarding the next few, until Chris finishes his residency. And even looking at his post-residency with Chris' words echoing in my mind: It's like a carrot and stick, but at the last minute, they keep taking away the carrot.
Is there an emoticon for the above?
