Get thee behind me, 2005

[ciroccoj]

Well, here I am, trying to think of something lighthearted to say about 2005 and something hopeful to say about 2006... and kinda drawing a blank.

OK, here goes, nice things about 2005:

• Jacob. No, I don't want a baby of my own. But being able to see him grow and discover the world around him is wonderful. And I can only hope that being there for a little while once a week is helpful to Karen. Around the time that I was feeling overwhelmed and exhausted with Daniel, and then falling into a deeper and deeper depression from the isolation and crushing exhaustion of taking care of both Daniel and Justin with nobody around to help, I promised myself that if I knew anybody with a new baby, I would try to help if I possibly could. Don't know how much good a few hours a week is, but I hope it's better than nothing.
  
  
• Daniel seeming somewhat happier at home than he was at school. At least for the first two months. In the last little while he's been dealing with the fallout of our home life.
  
  
• It's almost over.

Hopeful things about 2006:

• Hopefully this year will see the end of Chris' residency.

That's about it.

...and it's taken me about three hours, on and off, to write the above. So I think I'll stop this entry soon, before I go on to write about how crappy I've been feeling about life in general for the last few months, as Chris' fucking job has dealt us one slapdown after another. Let's just say I can relate to some of the people on my flist who are dealing with depression issues and who really want to just curl up in bed and not get up for a long, long time. I don't really have much of a choice about doing that. Daniel and Justin won't just take care of themselves because Mama's not feeling like dealing with life and Daddy can't come home till almost bedtime most nights and often has to study through the weekend.

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I think I'll come up with some recs or something. I saw an absolutely hysterical LOTR video of "I'm Too Sexy", starring mostly Gandalf. Had never really bothered with vids before, since about once a year I tried to download one and it didn't work. This one did and made me LOL, which led me to look up HP videos, and found some really nice ones - one quite touching one, to Duran Duran's "Ordinary World", and another silly one, to "True Love Is Blind".

Oh and I found an HP fic whose URL I will track down, a Hermione-POV futurefic where Hermione has a high-ranking job at the Ministry:

• A completely unforeseen part of my new job description entailed hauling Dominico Malfoy's arse out of the ashes. It was getting old. He purposely antagonized his father by pulling these sorts of stunts in Muggle London. The fact that he was Draco Malfoy's son and his performance as a junior Auror were the only two things stopping said ashy arse from being fired. A testament to Harry's fair nature, he loathed the son but acknowledged Dom's brilliance as an Auror. Harry would appear in my office no less than twice a month, rant and rave about what a worthless piece of Malfoy shit the child was, like father and son, and, by the way, he saved my life in a raid last week, and could you please Obliviate all and sundry per his latest prank.
  
  
• "Do you know how nice it was to see my son without a sneer or smirk on his face? He's usually an arrogant little prick who never says anything to me without being sarcastic or outright nasty."
  
  "Now you know what it was like to go to school with you. Pot, kettle," I smirked.
  
  
• "Potter is the man of the hour. Most of the guests are in paroxysms of joy that I've wandered off somewhere, hoping against hope I've been eaten by the giant squid," he commented, all too accurately.
  
  
• I'm mortally wounded, Granger; I want you to know. Several people are going to be most disappointed on Monday morning. I checked the book last night; the odds were fifty to one that either Potter or myself would be dead before the 'I dos.' Odds mostly on me. Which is damn insulting.

Yeeah. I will find links to above recs. Because that takes far less time, and is far more satisfying, than dredging up how I'm feeling.

Comments

[umbo.livejournal.com]

I know I haven't commented a lot lately, but I have been reading, and you have been in my thoughts. Here's hoping 2006 is a better year for all of us.

*hugs*

[ciroccoj.livejournal.com]

::hugs back::

Thanks, sweetie. Amen to that re. 2006.

[jessebee.livejournal.com]

Sending you hugs and best wishes for a MUCH less stressful 2006. :-)

[ciroccoj.livejournal.com]

Thanks :)

[shiningmoon.livejournal.com]

I hope you have a list of your recs somewhere because the quotes always make me laugh, yet I never remember to copy the URLs.

All my best for a better '06.

[ciroccoj.livejournal.com]

Hee - no, I don't have a list, but I keep telling myself I should. Will get off duff and actually do so, sometime in the near future :)

[cabenson.livejournal.com]

Here's hoping that 2006 is better for all of us!